Eris

Kajira ... Panther Girl ... Free Woman

I am of Gor, both roleplaying it in SL, and as a Gorean Lifestyler in RL.

In SL, I seek the Gor that is from the novels ... by the book (BtB) ... and not "extended" or "evolved" Gor ... and I have no limits except for death.

I been in SL Gor for almost 20 years ... mostly as a kajira (slave) ... but also many years as a Panther Girl ... and at times a Free Woman, usually as a scribe or magistrate.

Every role I've played in SL is based on a facet of my RL personality.

When I hike the woods and lakes of the Rocky Mountains near my home, alone miles from the closest other human, I become a Panther Girl, an independent woman whose soul belongs to the forests.

When I handle urban life and my family's needs by myself, I become a Free Woman, an independent member of the complex society working to keep my city going.

When I wear a collar in RL and kneel submissively on my knees in front of a man, giving of myself as a woman to fulfill all of his sexual desires, I become a kajira, a slave that exists for no other purpose than to obey the commands of my Master and all other men I encounter.

In both RL and SL, I am knowledgable regarding survival in the wild, knowledgable regarding scribal work with documents and other forms of writing, and knowledgable regarding sexually pleasuring men in a wide variety of ways.

At the depth of my heart in real life, I know that one facet of me stands out by far the strongest ... I am at the core of my being a slave, a kajira, a beast ... my life's purpose being to serve a strong, harsh Master and to give him total control of my life.

Wearing a very real steel collar around my neck, I spent years serving three strict Masters on my knees during my real life, one of them as a live-in, full-time total-power-exchange servant, his property in every way ... and it was one of the most beautiful times of my life.

In SL, I am a very immersive roleplayer, and I truly feel my character's emotions, from happiness to fear to everything in between. That being said, I know OOC and IC are very different, and my character may appear upset in SL, but, at the same time, in RL I may be having a great time roleplaying.

In RL, to those who know me as the Gorean slave I am, I have been described as a feisty Northern bondmaid in spirit with the extensive training and skills of a Southern kajira ... and I have been that way in SL at times, too.

What drives me most is an unquenchable fire in my spirit calling me to submissively bring happiness to others through my obedience, and I am proud of the quality of service I've provided to my owners over the years.

But I am just as strongly a scribe in RL. I love words, and I'm damn good at using them. I love learning new facts, conducting research, and sharing my findings with others. I was a newspaper journalist for years.

And maybe as much as anything ... what makes my spirit sing in RL is what makes me a Panther Girl ... my connection to the natural world around me ... to when I walk along mountain streams in quiet solitude, alone but for the spirits of the flora and fauna surrounding me.

I am a kajira. I am a Panther Girl. I am a Free Woman scribe.

I am a woman of Gor ... and that cannot be denied.